what a day! after work i met sarah bideau-cott for dinner. she is my "cheerleader" in this game of life! we caught up on her life of marriage, the farm, & school and my life of work, school, & vision. she spoke such valuable Truth into my situation that i was left with nothing more to say than, "thank you, sarah."
after dinner i met jenni for my 1st night at christian challenge (better known on campus simply as 'challenge'). it is one of the campus ministries here at KSU. during worship, the Holy Spirit spoke directly to my heart through the hymn, Jesus Paid It All.
"I hear the Savior say, 'Thy strength indeed is small; Child of weakness, watch and pray, Find in Me thine all in all.'” as the night continued, robbie nutter spoke out of genesis 28. as he was reading, these words attacked my heart & left me breathless at the continual, pursuing love of my Father.
Genesis 28:15"I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you."to give you a bit of context, my prayer through the entire tuition trial has been
exodus 33:15-17"Then Moses said to him, 'If your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here. How will anyone know that you are pleased with me and with your people unless you go with us? What else will distinguish me and your people from all the other people on the face of the earth?' And the Lord said to Moses, 'I will do the very thing you have asked, because I am pleased with you and I know you by name.'"i have been crying out, "
Lord, show me where Your Spirit is going. I want to follow you. Please don't get too far ahead of me so I can't catch up. Keep me in the loop, here, God."during dinner sarah so lovingly took both my hands and said, "Cassie. His Spirit is in you. He is with you. He is not going anywhere. If you go to Washington, DC, He's with you. If you go to Sulphur Springs, Arkansas, He is with you. If you stay in Manhattan, Kansas, He is with you. He is not going anywhere. He is in you. He will never leave you or forsake you. This decision does not cause Him to stay with you or walk away from you. He is with you."
then, tonight, after robbie read genesis 28 he repeated over and over and over, "wherever you are, He is with you. wherever you're going, He is with you. He is with you in your sin. He is with you in your repentance. in your good and your bad. He is with you. God is with you."
Abba~thank You for Your prevailing truth that rises above circumstances, emotions, or thoughts. thank You for faithfully pursuing me with Your Stubborn Love. i am humbled by Your kindness, silenced by Your goodness, and absolutely in love with Your reality. thank You doesn't begin to communication the level of my gratitude.with a heart full of humble adoration, i rest in the truth of Your never-leaving Presence. oh, Faithful Father, i breathe deep of Your goodness tonight. i peacefully rest in Your waiting room, cassiebeth